I’m Scared
~to not love again.
Why wasn’t I warned that it would be this hard?
I had given my heart,
I wanted him, and I had him
Why didn’t anyone tell me it could have been infatuation?
The child in me had died
when I knew it was no longer true.
I had played up and messed up his mind
Shattered his soul and set myself free.
I’m scared to love again.
I’m scared to love again
because I know Karma is waiting for me,
He’s around the corner or even in my classroom.
He will come in the form of someone I love and-
He’ll abandon me like I had once.
I’m scared to love again.
I’m scared to love again
Because I’ll pay the price,
I know history will be repeated again
For five years I’ve locked myself away and
it only gets worse,
Because the feelings won’t stay contained anymore.
I’m scared to love again.
It is a mere coincidence that I no longer-
find mutual love,
It has gone for a vacation and won’t be back till I redeem myself,
I’m confused and even disturbed at times
I’m not the 15 year old girl, turning 21 soon enough
I miss goodnight wishes.
I’m scared to love again.
I’m scared to love again
Because I’m guilty.
I’m scared to love again
Because it often seems easy to forget,
And yet this memory still stands strong in my mind.
I built walls, not because someone might break me
But what if I break someone again?
My feelings for him dissipated long ago
Then what do I long for?
I’m scared to love again
Because I feel that someone will lose interest in me,
Sooner than ever.
Maybe I’ve matured over the years and maybe I haven’t
But it doesn’t get any easier
Because it took me a year to get used to-
Not receiving text messages from you.
I don’t want to get attached again.
I’m scared to love again,
Because I’m getting used to this,
Because it took guts and little glory
To tell someone I loved,
Because it took guts and all glory
to kiss him,
Because it took sticks and stones
to break my body,
but not my soul.
I’m scared to love again,
Because I’ve become attached again.
I’m sorry for what I was and what I am.
So different then and so different now
I’ve become what I warned him I would never become.
Echoes from the other side
And I’m scared to listen
I’m scared to open the door because
Karma will be waiting outside.
I’m scared to love again
Because it’s never to late to start again
It never happens the same way
And I’m scared to make the same mistake again.
This isn’t a cry for help or self pity,
A mere memoir of what I have been.
I miss being loved but I don’t miss you.
Like a river flows
Surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
-Can’t help falling in love(Elvis Presley)
Beautiful lines Miyuki ! Just Amazing buddy! Keep going 😎☺
<3thank you
Writing is lucid and extremely visual… A big fan !
❤
Dearest Senpai
Loads of love
Let’s see you soon
NOICE.
Nice.
😍 :”)